E-HO nighT.Tmares

Im having nightmares.. Terrible. Scary ones. I dreamt of getting Housemanship at Sabah Sarawak.. And crying at the airport (in the dreams kay). Its all because there were some glitches when i was choosing hospital at e-Ho portal and all the options in Semenanjung just vanished. I literally woke up drenched in sweat, with palpitations. Could not believe it was not real for a moment. But thank God it was not real. I was having mental panic that moment. It's not that Sabah Sarawak is bad or what. Its just that, its too far.. I would be more ready if the gov campak me there during Mo-ship but not for my Ho-ship. 

Maybe this nightmares all because too much cumulative fear of not getting my e-Ho choices. I dont know, the fear is there even though my e-Ho is most probably months away. 

Just a day ago, e-Ho for 3rd batch of this year was called in. There were lots of hu-ha's in all the telegram groups for each tapisan. And I had been reading all this messages meticulously to not miss any tips and tricks for my application later on. Guess that put too much pressure on me. Plus, so many were doing hospital swappings and stuff. Some even chose to defer this intake because they didnt get hospital of their choice. So its scary. 

Therefore, I think I would definitely put a post for all future Ho's one day on application of e-ho and everything we need know and prepare one day. One day.

And I'm breaking down my honesty piggy bank today:I didnt really pick up any of my books for past few days, this eHO drama over telegram has sucked my life out of it. I was mentally telling myself that I would not be able to have this pleasure of playing phone games, in front Tv with comfort of lying on sofa. And I decided to be living at that moment the entire night today. Except for that time when my mom came down to get water at 11.50 pm and got upset with me for not washing up the dishes. I totally forgotten about it. Mind it, I was living my moments.

p/s: Having said that, I did do few studying before this kay, so I'm not at all stupid for my housemanship hahaha

So lets see if I do anything useful for the days after this. Ciao!