Junior DR

Im having nightmares.. Terrible. Scary ones. I dreamt of getting Housemanship at Sabah Sarawak.. And crying at the airport (in the dreams kay). Its all because there were some glitches when i was choosing hospital at e-Ho portal and all the options in Semenanjung just vanished. I literally woke up drenched in sweat, with palpitations. Could not believe it was not real for a moment. But thank God it was not real. I was having mental panic that moment. It's not that Sabah Sarawak is bad or what. Its just that, its too far.. I would be more ready if the gov campak me there during Mo-ship but not for my Ho-ship.  Maybe this nightmares all because too much cumulative fear of not getting my e-Ho choices. I dont know, the fear is there even though my e-Ho is most probably months away.  Just a day ago, e-Ho for 3rd batch of this year was called in. There were lots of hu-ha's in all the telegram groups for each tapisan. And I had been reading all this messages meticulously to not miss ...

Studying, adding knowledge to this tiny little pea brain in pretty exhausting. I can go on spending the next many hours glued to the screen of my Android, but the moment some serious realization hit my conscience, that I should be doing some serious studying, that is exactly when I feel all lazy, fatigued, malaise sometimes proximal myopathy to even carry the books. After many months of contemplating of making this blog (in fact I had many unpublished drafted posts of how annoyed I am for being useless at home, I deleted them), I am making a serious decision. I am strictly sticking to writing this blog, sharing stories until I get my e-Housemanship offer which should be about 2-3 months for now. This decision purely made because I am bored. I need to do something which i beneficial before I got worked up as Houseman doctor. I cannot regret then, can I? Well, being at home pretty sucks. I mean for a girl like me, I like exploring stuffs, outings, travelings, foods (mind it, I don't ...